"Caged" poem written today

I feel like a modern day Mac
from One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
Trying to help the sick
but I'm becoming like the rest.

Choking on words, drowning in thoughts
thinking I belong in the Disturbed Ward.
Finding hope, needing grace
please help me find a way, oh Lord.

Time is tough, distance is hard
Especially for a kid my age.
I need patience, I need You
to get me out of this cage.

I'm looking down, feeling ashamed
knowing my head should be raised.
Maybe it's all in my head,
but I'm tired of this craze.

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"In This Together" new poem written today

What's it like to be on the other side?
To be with the one's who chose not to hide.
Where the shadows are rays of light
And our day is their night.

Is there a way to get a glimpse
of hope?
There's gotta be a way
I know.
How can we get everyone
to follow?

How can I save everyone else
If I haven't even saved myself
I can't do it alone, I need some help.

Open my eyes, wake me up
Cause we're in this together
no matter what the weather.

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Some older poems

"The Test"

Worry can drive a man insane.
Constantly walking in the rain.
Thoughts scatter and nothing is clear.
Sorrow has found me in the mirror.

Self-doubt is out and about
Parading around, I've got nothing to show.

How long is this show going to last?
God, I hope something happens fast.
Not sure if I'm right for the part.
Let's go back to the start.

Take away the worry.
Take away the pain.
I'm hanging on by a thread.
Just put this to rest
I think I've failed the test.

"Lucky"

Looking back
I wouldn't change a thing.
Seeing you
makes me wanna sing.

How lucky am I
that I found you?
How lucky am I
that you feel the same too?
Precious kisses, hit and misses
You fill my biggest wishes.

I was lost
before you said, "I love you."
Finding love
that can be so true.

Lying alone
tonight on my bed
Missing you
and all that you've said.

"You're the One"

Now's the time
I'm saying, "Goodbye" already.
It seems like I just said, "Hello".
It's so hard to watch you go.

You're the one
I think about to make me smile.
You're the one
who lets me change the dial.
You're the one
person I want to get close to
You're the one
that I hope will say "I do."

Now's the time
I'm saying, "Goodnight" already.
I'll be looking forward to saying, "Hello".
I just hope you know

You're the one
I think about to make me smile.
You're the one
who lets me change the dial.
You're the one
person I want to get close to
You're the one
that I hope will say "I do."

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A song that seems to explain my thoughts recently

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFopg8VQn3g

"The Earth Falls Asleep" by Abandon Kansas

Chorus:
Can anyone tell me how,
How we learn to live with ourselves?
I've been forgiven things only God knows
But I can't forgive myself
And after all of my searching I found who I am
And it's not what I wanted
But I'm here now and I'm broken
Come save me from this hell

The earth falls asleep much too early for me
And I close my eyes but I can't rest
My body is tired, my mind is running
From the past, to the east, to the west
Trying to find the blame
That You've already taken from me

(Chorus)

I'm convinced that the world that we see
Is a curtain behind which vast realms await us
Of uncharted marvels and oceans of mercy
Inside my Father's eyes
And the mountains are grandstands
That sheets of blue skies rest upon
Peeled back with ease by Your hands
To reveal a quarry I've never dreamed...

(Chorus)

I want to take all the things I've done
The people I've hurt
Get what I deserve
But You won't let me
No, You won't let me
My hope is in the unseen
My hope is in the unseen

My hope is in the unseen
'Cause I see no hope in me

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Some poems/songs I wrote yesterday

"The Way"

Let's go!

Walking down, looking around
this hallway full of memories.
What was it like before
I had a grip of who You are?

The unknown is scary
to those who carry
the weight of worry

Take these hearts
Make them new
Show them the Way
and the love of You.

This is the Way.
This is the Way.
He is the Way.
He is the Way.

"The Truth"

You want the truth?
I have made mistakes.
Even in youth
I've had my aches.

The Truth is
I need You.
The Truth is
I love You.
What good have we done
without Your Son?

We seek wisdom and knowledge
sometimes in a song.
Even after college
we don't know right or wrong.

Your love
I have craved
Without You
I cannot be saved
from false truths.

"The Life"

Wondering around
Wondering why it's rough
Wondering if
I'll ever be good enough.

Thinking that
today is my last day
Not sure
if I followed Your way.

It's hard to see the Truth
with Darkness around
But then there's a Light
and I have been found.

You've given me Life
You've given me Love
You've given me all of the above.
Forgive me, oh God
for things I've done
when push came to shove.
Continue to show me
how to love not only my wife
and shine on in my life.

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Hello Everyone

To anyone that reads this I want to say thanks for checking this out. I figured I should say a few things about myself so you'll get to know me a little better.

First, and foremost, I am 19 and I am a Christian, now don't let that scare you, I am not somebody who judges everyone else, and I don't think I'm better than anybody else. I am here to love everyone, including you, no matter how different our views may be. I love you and though I may not know you personally, I know that God loves you and if He loves you, then I should love you too. It's thanks to Him that I have been blessed with many of the gifts I have today.

Second, I am a music lover, and yes, I can be a bit judgmental when it comes to music. But, I still don't hate you, and if it's a new band, I am willing to check them out. So in future posts if you see me mention a band that you know and you want to recommend another band that sounds like them, go ahead, because I love discovering new music. Music is basically what I live for, besides God, and I listen to it and try to play it everyday. I play guitar and have played for about 7 years and I still have much to learn. I also can play a little keyboard. But anyway, because I love music so much, I am wanting to be a music producer. It has always seemed cool to me, and there is a school in Nashville that I am wanting to attend. After that, it is my dream to work for Tooth & Nail Records in Seattle. And maybe I'll even write a few songs too for myself. I don't know for sure, but I feel God pulling me toward music because I seem to have quite an ear for it. If you ever want to talk music with me I am always up for it.

Something else about me that you should know is that I write poems/songs. I have quite a few and the ones that can be turned to songs, I haven't put music to because I tried it on one and wasn't too satisfied. But for future reference, some of my blogs may include or just have my poems in them.

I think thats a good start and I kinda want to check out some things, but thanks again for checking my blog out and I hope you continue to follow it.

God bless and Love
Erik

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